I m losing my voice since last wk...
can't talk...js could heard...
mayb bemoan too often...until temporary "mum"?
mournfully ....
Ya , seen tt also wldn't affect my usual life...as Eagle needn't any bargain or reward since he tk medical treatment ...
bubbly Eagle gone ...obedient Eagle tk turn nw !!
still ambiguous about our decision ...
cruel or unfair to Eagle ?
beatific for him ?
did Eagle really knw his agreement of these decision ?
or he js impulsive ?...helpless ?
nobody could gv me answer ....
my pitiful baby s suffering of vomit since tk medicine ...but he told me he can tk it ...need nt to worry ...
hw could I ignore his painful rite ?
tearing ...sobbing...
could feel sorrowful of my hubby & Birdie too ...
Really changed ...hw could medicine totally changed mankind demeanour n sudden ?
Stunningly ...amazement !!

em...really a bad day of my lovely Birdie ths few days ...
after badly injury of her Taekwondo contest last Sunday (13/7 )...she seen really unfortunate !!
her English oral which held on the nx day of her "fantastic" contest ...make her depressed ...as she ws feeling exhausted couldn't concentrate n hearing & answering Q ....
Hwever , she still needs to complete her 20times correction per mistk grammar Q within 3days ...almost 600 ++ !!
Bsides , she ws accidentally fell dwn when stood at the vivocity playground yesterday afternoon...her legs & elbow hs scratched bled n unexpectedly...
ai...why all torment happened n stunning ?
Seen tt I shd make blessing for my baby at Kuang Yi temple soon...mayb ths s the only way I could do ....
yup...when a normal human being r helpless...ths mayb a wisely psychic consolation rite ?

I can't forgv myself ...
I m tearing ...
feel sad ...badly heartaches ....after Eagle treatment fm Mt Elizabeth Hospital ths morning ...
unexpectedly Eagle ws accepted Dr Sim suggestion -- medication treatment
Baby Eagle turn as another kid I nvr knw ...new leaf ?
mayb his other true demeanour ....
Ya , after tk medicine.... he really changed n other character ...
he ws concentrated n reading story books ...could wrote blog more than 100 words w/o complained or bargain ...but n clam & slow reaction ...
he lost appetites since tk medicine at 10am just nw ...tiring looks...slow action ...kp sitting to read ...
Seen tt these medicine really useful for hyperkids....
Ths mayb the 1st time I saw my baby Eagle read book by himself ...nt disturbing ...really quiet & no moving js sitting on sofa as normal kid ...even a single sound still could heard clearly ...
Stunningly ?
I still can't believe my senses...
Nevertheless , I feel sorrowful ...
I m an evil mum ?
why I agreed let my baby tk medicine ...since I ve knw tt it w ve side effect ?
The common effects w appear like headaches ... giddy ...vomit...lost appetite...tiring...slow reaction .**advised by Dr Sim**
Will Eagle blamed me ?
I m worrying ...nervous...although ve informed his teacher attention Eagle condition ...but still feel uneasy ...terribly ...
Is all of these what I want to see ?
Feel sorry to baby Eagle ...mayb he dun want to disappoint me again ?...unbearable social stress ?...
He must b suffering nw ...
My pitiful Eagle ...u always b my sweetheart ....even u r hyper ...
I m wondering tt let Eagle tk medication treatment s right or wrong ?
confusing nw ...

Why my baby Eagle non-stopping gv "special reward" to me ?
within 1 wk ...
What happened today ?
em...more grislier than Monday cases...
He held his classmate too "gently"...unfortunately ths girl hand was twisting while they wr running fm school " black place" !!
still nt sure hw much of the compensation yt ?
As her parent ve nt look for me right nw ....mayb tomorrow ...
ai...why my life so troublesome ?
wondering why my illness still nt cure since last wk ....
Ya ...w bring Eagle treatment at Mt Elizabeth Hospital tomorrow morning , as the previous doctor nt longer at Gleneagles Hospital ...she hs bn transferred as NTU professional lecturer nw !!
Hopefully , the new doctor --Dr Poleen Sim w gv my baby well treatment ....
I also need treatment too...either psychic or physical ...
spray Ventolin nw...dun knw whether w cure ?
groan...
seen tt my life really "groovy" rite ?
when w all b over ?

ai...my frd all very busy ...
some of them busy n work ...some r suffering of tk care children ...n some r studying ...
em...since school holiday over ...most of them really "vanish" !!
hahaha...
mayb I m too free ?
so, I gt ths terribly punishment -- fever !!
Ya ....I can strongly feeling tt my health n alarming ...as my heart pain more frequently since back fm Australia ... sometimes feel breathless ...
my fever could longer heal over 1 wk ...nt like previous 2 to 3 days ....
quite heady ...tiring ...
Even it seen really tough ...but I still resisting w my fever nw ~!
sombrely ...

Stunningly , Baby Eagle leg ws hurt as beat by his classmate Eham during school time !!
ai...auspicious ths time nt Eagle fault ...his teacher also explained while I picked Eagle home .
Wah ! my baby ws nt againt school rule n ths time ...
great news !!
ths other unbelievable occurance ..my baby Eagle do his homewk w/o guided yesterday night !!
before tt , we always ve to bargain --reward b4 he do homewk ...
bawl also Eagle usual reaction too ...
Ya , ths ws an amaze improvement of Eagle !!
Em...seen like beatific , although I m nt feeling well nw ^o^

ya...except my brother baby Jin Xi who born on 20/6 , still ve 3 more new born babies join n our big family !!
my elder cousin Aili really fantastic oh...she "produces" 2 babies n once --baby boy & baby girl !!
Ths 2 lovely babies wr born on 1/7 ...the baby boy more alike father & baby girl looks similar as mother ^o^
Quite envious my cousin could ve special twin n once ...really unthinkable rite ?
These 2 babies also our family prodigy ^o^
hahaha...
The other new born baby s zhi rong --my youngest aunt 1st baby boy !!...
zhi rong born on 11/7 -- easy to remember !!
erm..unanimous tt zhi rong s my youngest cousin nw ...quite incredible rite ?
my cousin younger than my kids !!
kekeke...
As my youngest aunt js elder me 3 yrs lah ^o^
Hopefully , all new born babies r blissful & healthy ...the main thg s dun b naughty oh !!

erm...mayb nt sleep well n ths few days ...
I m fever nw ...
feeling cool ...sleepy...tiring ...

ai...my baby Eagle caused troubles again yesterday ...
He ws crying terribly & refused went to school when it ws almost 1pm ....
ths unexpectedly demeanour seen familiar to me when Eagle ws 5yrs old ...same nightmare -- scary punishmt fm school teacher !!
I still feel tremble ...sob while facing ths "history" again ....
really made me terrified saw my pitiful baby screamed ...non-stopped tearing...shiver...not shenanigans as usual ...
couldn't tearing n front of my baby ...I knw he really suffering at tt moment...but quite tough & bearable too ....I locked myself n cried nside my car after "Eagle case bn settled"...
fortuitously , mdm Foo (Greenwood principle) graciousness helped ...if nt ...
can't imagine what w happen ?
Eagle lost his form teacher "special Maths red card" which ws gvn on last Friday ...
the main thg s ths "card" ws last stk ...
Bsides , mdm Tan (Eagle form teacher ) hd bn told them kp safely nside theirs organiser book ...w ve "terribly punishmt" if lost !!
erm...ths may made poor baby Eagle feels scary ...worrying...guity too .
Ya , ths ws another social lesson 4 Eagle --responsible !!
Finally , he realised shameful ...guilty ...scary ...worrying when making mistk ..
Hwever , I really feel sorry to mdm Tan ...she may feel sobbing nw as lost her valuable "card"...
Eagle seen quite admire mdm Foo since yesterday "troubles" ...
He told me tt he ws grateful as mdm Foo kindly helped ...on the other hand , he feel guilty to mdm Tan too !!
Couldn't deny tt Eagle really mature nw ...
Ths mayb a wonderful lesson 4 him too ^o^

still feel sobbing ...tearing nw ...
Birdie won 2nd *runner up* n Malaysia JB state Taekwondo tournamt yesterday !!
she s really braveness & high spirited ...although she s badly injury nw .
Couldn't stand the painful ...while I saw my baby Birdie ws hit heavily by other contestant ...she ws tearing too at tt meanwhile .
But surprisingly ...she still kp it up until the final contest ...
I could felt hw hardly she ws ...when suffered the terribly beat during contest...mayb those girls felt pain too !
almost 800 contestant joined ths tournament , 400++ s boy & other s girls .
I still unbelievable tt my Birdie gt runner up n ths contest ...as ths ws her 1st experience tk part n tournamt !!
Is ths a dream ?
It 's real ...bcoz Birdie whole body s seriously injury ...back ...elbow ...hand...legs ...all n wounds.
She ws crying while battled ...I almost wanted to stop the contest ...but my honey stopped me .
His reason ws let Birdie made decision ...
let child b mature...b independent ...b confident ...worth ?
eh...I dun knw ...I only knw tt my baby ws gt hurt ...ws tearing ....
she also wanted gv up at the quarter final ...
family mental support mayb useful when a child face helpless ...we kp encouraged "Birdie jia yu , u r the best !!"... "can't gv up easily since u ve stepped so hardly n quarter !!"
Poor baby Birdie really made it , she kp it up until the final ...
she lost to a Korean girl which ve several tournamt experiences ...she burst out out her tear n sudden ...
whether she feels painful of her injury or feels disappointed of her "lost" ...
I ws hardly controlled my sorrowful when saw my baby sobbed & hurt...I tried my best to console her & hugged her tightly n my arm ...
I can't bear to lost my baby ...feel pain of her injury ....can't stand of her tearing ...
blamed myself ...why dun stop her to tk part ths tournamt n early ...even I ve knw tt she w gt hurt ....but no so badly ...
Eagle ws furious ...mayb he feels pitiful of Birdie ...he said tt only he could bully Birdie , other can't !!
He wanted to beat tt Korean girl when he saw Birdie ws tearing n injury ...
lucky tt we stopped him !!
Bsides , Eagle ws scolded & shouted : " what parent u r , urs kid s injury nw ...u still want them to fight !!"
Ya , couldn't deny tt all contestant r injury , nt only my pitiful baby Birdie ...the worst r those n semi-final .
Too cruel...too savage...humanless ...ths ws my true feeling of ths tournamt .
more like a traditional Thailand game --" cock fighting"...many ppl r surrounding ... shouting ...supporting their favourable "Little creature"...humanity ?
hopefully , my kids wldn't tk part n all "fantastic" contest n future ...
heartaches ...hurt ....really can't stand of it when I recall my memory of ...
I ve nightmare last night ...a really horribly ...scary ...
Hwever , I still ve to admit tt Birdie s a great & holy "warrior"...nvr gv up until last !!
She always b my proud baby ...not bcoz of her success ...

erm...quite upset ...disappointed while I knw tt my honey ve golf games on Saturday morning ...
As he hs made promissory tt he w accompany us watch movie on Saturday morning .
Bsides , I also ve cancelled my violin class since ths date!!
Quite unbearable of ths sudden "spoilsport"...
Always lie to me ...it seen fun ?
even Birdie & Eagle also felt "lost" at tt moment too ...
Hwever , our SPA appointmt also ve to change timing liao ...
Then , our morning movie changed to night movie !
aiyo ...why those married guys r like tt ?
spent more time w family mean "torture" ?
Sometimes , I w blame Eagle as he looks alike his dad !...mayb unfair to him ?
Unfair ?
huh...he always "creat troubles"--bully Birdie & me !
Like father like son ....

I like raining ...especially at night ....
cry & nt disturb other ppl...bcoz raining could cover my sobbed ...
Feeling heartaches nw ...really pain...hurt .
still ve to pretending ?
ya , mask lifestyle !
I feel hurt ...why my baby Eagle always scream & shout to me ?
sometimes , curse me too ...
Refusing do homewk s his usual behaviour ...always ve screaming or terribly noisy while he back fm school ....
B a normal mum , request children do homewk s my usual & "amazement" task ...
Nevertheless , ths also cause blamed by my hubby ...he can't stand of noises as he feels tired & need rest after wk .
understanding his feeling ...hwever , did he could shared mine ?
Why I always the one b suffer ?...blamed ?...
will my baby Eagle cause my married end ? ...
Or I thk too much ?...
prefer raining night...seen more peaceful & quiet ....

Troubles again ?
yup ...quite a fraught incident happened yesterday evening when my baby Eagle back fm school...
I received a call fm my neighbour Jenny --Eagle classmate Timonty mum , she complained her son ws pushed by my baby Eagle during school dismission ...the terribly incident ws Timonty wore glasses during that moment ...Timonty eyes ws hurt !!
unexpected occurrence right ?
Although Eagle hd mentioned ths event while he ws back fm school ...but he ws only mentioned an accidentally pushed ...never sensed any seriously troubles....just clammed like normal !!
could u imagine hw worry I ws ?
I m not worry about compensation of money ....if money could made settlement mean everythg w b alright ....
my concerning s the kid eyesight ...
I always b the "rubbish collector" when my baby Eagle "created fantastic rubbish" ...
em...ths may just a start ...still ve few mths to go ...
I thk my enjoyable time s school holiday ...I need nt to worry what w happen nx (although still ve unexpected event happen , but the victim only Birdie & me )...or hw to apology or made compensation ...
headaches ...high blood pressure...may fainted soon !
Eagle , when w all ths "wonderful" stuff b vanish ?
gv me a break !!

Em...Eagle seen lost interest n tuition lesson ...since he hd punished as re-copy 10times n each sentences !
What shall I do ?
If he s a normal kid ...I thk I should teach him personally ....unfortunately , he s nt ....
I knw that it really w made him feel stressful ...limpness during tuition class...but it seen could b an advantages for him to learn more knwledges ...patient ...living skills...rather learning at home right ?
Sometimes , I may feel pitiful for my poor baby too ....
Hyperkid s fate ?
Ya...mayb ...mayb nt ....who kwn ?
Since it hd really happened , I ve to accept it .
I couldn't protect Eagle forever...must let him b independent...b confident ...b acceptable by other ...
hyperkid really nt easy accepted by other ppl ....
Certainly , he ve to face "unexpectedly" troubles & incidents during his "learning journey" ...not only happened at school life ...even family ....relatives ...frds too .
Eagle , u always b my sweetheart ^o^
I w try my best to gv my baby mental support silently ...even it s really a hard task .
hope that my amiable Birdie could understand my feeling ...I may ve to spent more concern & care on Eagle ...but I still love her ^o^
I should apology to Birdie ...I m sorry as blamed her accidentally hit Eagle on head during their Taekwondo training Tuesday night .
I may too sensitive about hurt ....
Both r my babies ...unfair ?
Could love b sharing ?
yup...I thk my love ve bn shared n many pcs ...
who could share their love w me ?

We ve a wonderful day at Bedok reservoir on last Sunday afternoon ^o^
Birdie & Eagle wr experienced their new challenge -- Forest Adventure !
Ths s a Tree Top course , 5 metres above ground & 48 activities included ....quite a exhilarating fun !!
Bsides enjoy fun & adventure trip ...it could also train our braveness & confident too .
unbelievable that Eagle never gv up while he ws accidentally & almost fell fm the higher tree...he kp climbed by himself w/o any helped ...the great thg ws he hd finished the whole amazement adventure n time !!
hwever , Birdie seen enjoyed her tree top adventure too ... she ws suggested play another round ...but time up !!
we promised our lovely warriors w join theirs adventure n nx trip ...as here also provided family packages & more fantastic adventures !!

I m nt feeling well since Sunday ...
still nt cure yt...
but better than last few days !
Quite unexpectedly news ! my 3rd auntie ws hospitalised since Monday night ...urgently operation on the nx day afternoon .
Well...hw to describe my feeling ?
nervous & worrying ...ths ws her 2nd time operation n ths yr..within 6mths !!
hopefully , she w recover soon ^o^
On the other hand , my 1st auntie seen sorrowful of her illness ...
I heard that she ws refusing n her cancer treatment ...as she feels painful & lost of confident n medical !!
Except encouraging & console her ...I really hopeless ...
What shall I do ?
Sometimes , I wld ask myself ...whether my concerning way s right ?
bsides , I dare nt to tell her that I also lost of confident as her ...
She lost confident bcoz of illness ...hw about me ?
I lost confident of myself .
feel hurt ...I try my best b a good mother ...why my baby Eagle still thk I m an evil mum ?
limpness...
Ya ...my hubby unkwn my feeling too .

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