Really loathe of "pay lip service"....
Felt listlessly as I heard what my hubby hd told me yesterday afternoon....he said he w back to office on ths morning 31/12....the last day of 2007 !!
He hd plausibly promised w tk leave on 31/12 since last wk....to celebrate the last day of yr end w ours lively children at JB ....ths great new made us liven & rapturous ^o^
My dearest hubby also repeated his promissory on Saturday afternoon 29/12 while Birdie went to tuition class ....
Who w knw what w happened on the nx day ?
Regrettable , all changed as sudden ....
Ya ...we were really went to JB at 6:30am yesterday morning ....ths ws nt a pleasant holiday celebration ....the main reason ws he gt golf game w his frds at Starhill JB ...
While he finished his "maniacal" golf game...he gv me a shocked news : " We must back to S'pore as he gt special lunch w his colleagues at office tomorrow !! "...
After heard his planned ...I asked him "when he knw ths lunch date ?"...he gv me a terrible answer : " last wk ! "...just like nothing happened b4 ~~!
It ws a really wonderful "drama" I never ever knw....seen that I ws manipulated as a fool puppet....my lovely Birdie & Eagle also felt disappointed too....
After thought about what he hd done ...set up...promised....I ws realized what hd actually happened ...mayb I ws too recklessly & trusted him....
Love s blind & stupid....I agree....bcoz I really more like a dump nw !
Broke-promissory ....spoit family holiday planned...destroyed family trusty...
Did he really a remorseless guy ? I still wonder did I married w a "stranger" ? Or I never really knw his real personality ?...
After 12yrs married ...repentance & repellent always repetitively n my mind ....especially ths few yr....
I never 4gt what he hd done to me when Eagle ws born ....he teased me as fat as smelly motion n front of my parents & children...it really hurt me ~!
Therefore , I started to slim dwn fm 84kg until 53kg nw....mayb I should grateful of his "graciousness" teased right ?
Shilly-shally s my weak manner...I gv up suicide as hyperactivity Eagle & obiling Birdie still need my protection & care ...gv up divorce as I thk I still love him much that ever...
Did my blove obliviousness ? trickery ? trifler ? machinations ?
Feel sombrely nw ....I ws crying when I ws at gym ths morning....couldn't controlled my emotion...
Shout & scream & cuss really appeared n my mind...but I w never do it as ths may scare or hurt my lovely kids --Eagle & Birdie ...
Limpness...disconsolately...discomfit...nt relating w the called off holiday ...but s regarding w trusty...forswore...deceived...
Did I & my hubby w " Darby and Joan" ?
.........
Could someone gv me some console ? mental support ?

We back to S'pore on the afternoon of X'mas day...felt a bit upset & disappointed as I ve turn dwn my parent warmer X'mas dinner invitation ....
I really hope could ve X'mas gathering w my mum on ths gleeful day ...but considered about my hyperkid -- Eagle erraticed demeanour may bcame the spoilsport...then I gv up my mind ...
Spent my valuable time w my bubbly children Birdie & Eagle ...gv them a delighted X'mas day ^o^
I knw that most of my relatives ..ever my parent ...especially my bro & sis w treat & thk Eagle s a "troublemaker" ...couldn't blamed them ...Eagle really ve such perky ....perilously behaviours...made other ppl thought that he may hurt or harm theirs "tiny" kids...
Hypocritical...couldn't tricked ..betryed the purely & clearly feeling of a hyperkids who gt the irrritatest & sharpest mind...
Well...mayb n theirs position ...I w also ve same feeling as them ...
Eagle wldn't b isolate...he also needs ours corcern & love ...after a very meticulous consideration...I made a wisely decision : " My parent still ve my bro & sis ...but Eagle only gt me ..."
I wldn't left Eagle alone ...
I & my hubby & Birdie w accompany with Eagle n dauntless...non-matter hw fraught of it ...we wldn't gv up ^o^
When arrived ours S'pore condo...my hubby suggested went to Central point & Suntec city after settled dwn ours belongings....
Eagle & Birdie were cheerily when high tea at Central point...after that we went to Suntec city ve ours pleasant dinner at Sizzler ... Birdie & Eagle really enjoyed "dressing & topping" theirs delicious ice-creams....the pork rid ws theirs favourable foods ^o^
Looked at theirs exuberantly faces...my "sacrifice" s worthwhile !!
A enlivenment X'mas dinner ^o^
Mayb my cheekiness rejected w made my dear parent felt "lost" or ungrateful...
Wish that my thoughtful parent w understand my mind.....I really unnerve to face hypocritical mercy....
Did I m a hypochondriac ?

Couldn't imagined that my "elaboration" neighbourly really wonderful !!
Except the foreign couples who I hd mentioned on last wk ...still gt another surprised invitation fm my same blk 9C neighbour on last Firday...but I ws on the way back to JB at meanwhile !!
Really touched as received theirs warm invited ^o^
Althought I couldn't attended theirs geniality party ...but I still could felt theirs genuiness ~!
Appreaciated all the invitation I hd received ...wish that I could ve chance to attend theirs gleeful party n nx time !!
Well...
I also ve arranged a harmonious pre X'mas cum "Tang yuan festival" at my pleasant home on last Saturday night ^o^
Unfortunately ...that ws a "pour" of sudden rain b4 the party started ^@^.... ths really a "prank" 4 us ?
My lovely kids felt undesirably about it ...they also thought about whether ths party w call-off ?
Tks of God blessed ...the rain stopped after 30mins ...so...the party belated to 8pm lol...
hehehe...
My father n-law came w whole family members !! my parents & my bro family also came along !! ....except my sister family & my hubby bro n-law weren't attended ths party ...
Mayb of the sudden rain ? busy ? other invitation ?...
Felt upset at the meantime ....
Everthought my hubby bro family weren't attended...but they still bought a tasty cheese cake 4 ours party ^o^...really touches !!
We ve prepared meehoon + chicken curry + sushi + satay + sweet corns+ traditional snacks + log cake + cheese cake + fruit drinks ...
Do u feels hungry nw ?
hahaha...
Except foods & drinks ....we also gv special present to all attended children oh !
A wonderful & un4gtable night ....could celebrated ths plushy season w my family members ...especially my blove--- magnificience life !!
Appreaciate & accpetable w let ours life more humane ~~!

Really touch & ebullient as receiving a surprising X'mas invitation fm my neighbour who lives at Blk 3 a foreign couples which ve a lovely daughter -- Kelisa (Eagle schoolmate) !! They r come from England @
They w ve a X'mas gathering at theirs house on X'mas eve afternoon 2pm ...ths must b a pleasurable gathering ^o^
Quite disappointed that I couldn't attend ths wonderful party on X'mas eve ...as I w n M'sia at the meantime ~!!
Usually...I & my families w attend church gathering on ths nobleness X'mas eve !!...ths s ours annual events ^o^
My hubby praised my well neighbourly demeanour ^o^....
Kelisa mum ws sent the invitation personally ...ths made me embarassed & grimly as I m unable attend her gorgeous party !!
Well....
I also a glutton oh...eh ! waste a chance to taste England family traditional X'mas foods ..."gloomily" ?
hehehe... a bit lol ^~^
My family also w ve a pre-X'mas party on ths coming Saturday ....could also said that w b "tang yuan" festival celebration too...2 festivals celebrate 2gether !!
A smart n wonderful ideal gathering ^o^
Save & worthy right ?
Best wishes to all of my frds : "Merry X'mas !!"

Well ...X'mas s coming soon ...on nx Tuesday !!
Except prepared presents to relatives n frds ...I still thk about my blove hubby !!
I bought a stainless steel & water resistant Swiss watch as X'mas present to my dear ....ths brand of watch gt a pair !!..so, I also bought the lady style 4 myself too ^o^
hehehe...
B4 that I never bought a watch 4 myself & my dear ...ths ws my 1st experinced ...felt quite elated n excited !!
Likewise ...I also worry whether my blove w like ths brand of watch ? As he s wearing SEIKO nw ...price a bit different ...SEIKO more expensive !!
Wish that he w surprise & joyous when receive my special present~!
I really endeavour reveal my love to my blove clearly & remindinisce...watch mean time ....every hr...every min...every sec...when he looks at the watch w thk about me ^o^...then he couldn't b remiss me so easy mah...
Did I too Ah Q ?
Well...u may tease me nw !!
But if u ve same experinces as me ..who s married almost 12yrs ..then...u wldn't b tease me again lol ^~^
My bubbly children Birdie & Eagle also bought a very meaningful gift to theirs dearest dad --- a Goldlion belt !!
Why I say ths s a really meaningful gift ?
As reason of belt mean "tie up" relationship btw father & kids ^o^...ths what my cuteness babies told me !!
The other real reason s my hubby belt ws spolit at last wk....then gv my lovely kids a chance to buy a new belt 4 theirs benevolence dad lol ~!
Quite smart & thoughtfully children -- Birdie & Eagle !!
I thk urs dad w appreaciate & touch of urs solicitously ^o^

Hw to say ?
Not really a new frd ...but still could consider n new frd series !! as she s my hubby frd Ooi wife -- Liew Chai Lin a sweet n friendly lady ^o^
We ve knw each other almost 2yrs ...but seldom chatted or contact ...as we r shy ? mayb ?
hahaha...
Recently we r using e-mail as ours contact "link" ...b4 that I thought she ws a silence or quiet person ....sorry , I really nt malicious !!
And I always worried that she may thk I m a querulous ppl ?
hehehe...
Since last Saturday ....I just knw that she also could jocose like me oh!!
I may too juvenillty....always thk about the worst thg ^o^...so wasted 2yrs just start ours frdship !!
We r sharing ours experinces & feeling nw...n wking enviroment... joie de vivre ..marriage !!...she also gv me wisely advise too.
I hope she could b my sincere frd n future ....could share my jocundity & nostalgia together ^o^
Better don't let my solicitous dwn oh ~!
Blessing ours frdship could as firm as my hubby & his frd Ooi ..they ve knw each other since they were aged 7 ...almost 30yrs lol ^o^
Quite envious !!

We went to Funan center yesterday around 6pm...an unexpectable event really spoilt ours sportive journey!!...if my husband nt scuttle or scutter ...mayb he w b a "victim" nw ....ever my lively Eagle also could b a corpse ....if I ws unwieldy !!
All ths happened as a crazy n careless driver who drove SFL8750G an orange brown Toyota Vios...he reversed his "terrible" car n sudden ....unbearable that he ws unawared 2 ppls were acrossed the road at the meantime ....the main point s : " there s a 1 way road -- No reverse s allow !"
Unquestionable that....we felt frenzied n worried at that moment...my husband shouted the "sinner" to stop his car ....I couldn't imagine what w happen if ths "sinner" nt stopped his car ...reason as my lovely Eagle still behind his "terrible" car !!
Tks of God blessing...my blove r fabulously nt n hurt....only n unbelievable scare !!
Now...I really understand that why S'pore driving licence so difficult to pass ^o^
Except ths unexpectable occurance....we still enjoyed ours pleasant time at Novena n Ang Moh Kio Hub yesterday .....
Althought my kids were disappointed that they were belated as the ice-skate hd bn fully booked at 4:45pm .....but I still felt joyous n elated as I hv bought 3 pcs of sexy nightdresses ^o^
hahaha...selfish ?
I ve promised them w go to Novena more early on toworrow ...then fair lol !!
hehehe...

Oh...really 4fot about a splendid family day ^o^
We ve viewed the elaboration X'mas light decoration at Orchard rd on last Sunday night ...
Except the elaboration decoration...we also ve a peaceful n hilariously dinner at a Japaness restaurant ...
Really touches ...tks of the God blessing ...Eagle never let us dwn ...his well demearour really made our dinner more relaxable...
Likewise , ths ws a 2hrs dinner time ...Eagle just sat on his seat n chatted w us ^o^...my hubby gv ours lovely son a warm hugged as an encouragement !!
Birdie also felt cheerful as her little brother grown up ...more mature n hip ^o^
Ths tiny improvement s quite spirited us ...even more hinders...we still could face it bravery ^o^

My frd cum neighbour -- Janice hd born a baby girl on last Friday afternoon...ths s her 2nd child...n her elder kid s Timonty -- who s Eagle classmates !!
Intelligible that hw joyful n excited of Janice ....althought she ws nervous n insomnia as ths new life born ....she really a brave mum ^o^
She called me while she ws bleeding on last Friday morning around 8:30am....she couldn't believe that her baby girl wanted to come so early -- which ws only 37 mths !!
I blamed myself ...why I m nt familiar the destination of KK Hospital....therefore...the only thg I could done ws asked helped fm my other neighbour -- May who stays at 9flr same blk as me & Janice....
My purpose of called May ws asked her shw me the way of hospital...I wanted sent Janice by my own car ~!
Really disappointed that May told me she ws nt familiar the destination...bsides , her husband also gv a "wisely" suggestion : "called ambulance !! most of ppl wldn't sent a bleeding pregnant woman to hospital by theirs own car , ths very "pan tang" w cause bad luck !!"....
Ths preposterous mind made me felt uneasy n upset...mayb she gt her own point ...but ths critical time ws relevant w 2 human lifes !!
Did " pan tang" more important than life ? too vice....villainous....
I suspend May "hearty"...did I really knw her ?
I may ve a new "knwledge" of frd ....she could impudently acted worried n concerned after Janice went to hospital...n blamed Janice husband who couldn't rushed back fm Jurong ....
Her demeanour made me furious ....inconsequent !!
Even May ve gv us advise that "taxi driver wldn't accept ours request ..." but we still tried called citycab ... taxi arrived about 8 mins !!
Lucky the taxi driver never belated ...if not may caused a "tragedy"
Janice & her baby girl r at home nw ....a healthy n pretty little girl ...she s only 2.2kg !!
I hd visited them on Monday ...Eagle & Birdie also followed ....they ve a pleasant time w Timonty while I chatted w Janice !!
Best wishes to my dear frd Janice & her lovely baby girl ^o^

Eagle s sick ....high fever n vomiting...
Even he s n illness ...but he still looks energetic...sometimes , I w doubful whether he s the patient or I m the "enfeeblement" ?
My hubby really worry n concern about ours "lively" baby -- Eagle ...he called home every 1 - 2 hrs once....
Eagle also enjoys ths kind of "endearment"...acts more "illness" during his dad around ...
All his demeanour just wants our "attention" ...ths the hyperkids usual behavious !!
Look at his jocularity face ...he could made a few emotion face jiffy...let us felt guity ...furious...jocose...even cried...
hahaha....
His jiggery-pokery really a "ligament" of family relationship ^o^
We love u -- Eagle !! Recover soon oh ....we still short 4 a X'mas party dancer ^o^
Likewise...."tang yuan" festival coming soon...urs favourable "popo" homemake "tang yuan" s waiting u oh ^o

Just installed the starhub channel n my house ...so we could watch more channel at home nw !! Ths program ve free a 20" tv ...promotion item ^o^
But still ve to "flight" w Eagle lol...he always watches Cartoon channel n Disney channel only...
Birdie also "flight" computer w me ....aiyo ....why my life so poor ?
The main purpose of installed ths program s my hubby needs watches his favour "live" soccer match ....therefore we r the lucky ppl lol ....bcoz he only uses at night n mid night ^o^
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We went to Novena ths afternoon....as we ve promised ours lively kids played ice-skate over there !!....Birdie n Eagle really ve a new adventure n fresh challenge n theirs life ^o^...althought they ve bn played skate b4 ...but ths ws theirs 1st tried n ice-skate !!
Eagle ws fell dwn few times...he still endeavour to learn & played well ^o^...Birdie also fell dwn twice ...she looked more energetic than Eagle !! As reason Eagle left arm ws under "injection" yesterday , so he feels uneasy whole day ....poor baby !
I & my hubby ve a pleasant high tea at "Han's"while kids played ice-skate...but an alert alarm --"obsequious" suddenly appeared n my mind !!....ths made me felt doubful n suspend why he ve such "warm" demeanour ?...did he done any betrayed thgs again ? machinations ?...quite quirk !!
Couldn't blame me ve such mind ...he really made me indiscernibly "true" or "false" ?
Indignant ? ....obsess?... meditate?....
Did I really an obtusely or muggins wife ?
Mayb I m under "married melancholia"....
When w I b recover ? ....
Who can help me ?....

Finally..."Trick n Treat" came out lol....my lovely kids Birdie n Eagle were delighted n excited when they saw themself on kidscentral shw ^o^
My amenity house also on Tv shw too ...I felt great of my neat n tidy home !!
Althought my kids looked bubbly n sweet n ths shw ...but I still thk that my gawky honey ws the charmest n ths shw ...if Birdie n Eagle knw ths ...definitely w kill me !!
hahaha....
Ever some of my relatives n frds ve missed about ths shw...but they still gv mental support by call ^o^....I w like to thk of theirs thoughtful graciousness !!
My mum ws the 1 who seen more excited n elated than us ...she remindered her neighbours n relatives must supported her grandchilds by action !!
Hw a wonderful grandmum right ? don't grudged Birdie n Eagle ok !!
Ths meaningful memory could b Birdie n Eagle un4gvtable memory ^o^
We ve a pleasant dinner at Friday restaurant on last Saturday night ....Eagle ve well behaviour-- ths ws the 1st time !! we weren't complained by other ppl...almost 2hrs !!
Eagle nt a devil again !! he could spent more than 30min ...he played games ...watched live soccer games ...ate his foods !!
Birdie also felt joyous during ths meaningful dinner....she played her petgames n drew !!
Ths ws a great dinner I ever ve ^o^ ...wish our sweet memory wldn't b vanish soon ....
Kp it up Eagle !!
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My hubby w tk part n golf tournament on tomorrow afternoon....best wishes to him ^o^
Meanwhile , I also quite curious about the weather of tomorrow ?
Bcoz...raining season nw !!
W theirs tournament w call - off or carry on ?
hahaha....
Did I really provoking ? ..."provincial" mind ^o^
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I decided make a X'mas roll cake ths afternoon ...a delicious strawberry roll cake ^o^
Then...I ve to prepare the recipe nw ~!!
Do u wants taste my roll cake ?

Is Eagle an encumbrance ?
I couldn't denied that my endurance may vanish....if Eagle still ve such terrible behaviour....he really s a headaches !!
We were visited ours auntie last night...bcoz my grandpa came to visit his youngest daughter who s pregnant nw !!...At the begining , Eagle behaved quite well...but after 20min later...he started unceremonious n unbridled...ths made us felt uneasy n embarrassment....at that moment , I really worried he would spoil or mess my auntie house...
Did Eagle really a spoilsport ?
Mayb he just 1ed our attention ...he felt bored...lonely...as he ws the only young boy at there...
Ths ws what I consoled myself last night...Birdie ws the "victim" during Eagle acted "x-normal"...poor Birdie ...tks of urs tolerance n graciousness !!
Sometimes...I also thk that we r unfair 2 Birdie ...why she always b the "victim" ?
Birdie such an elegance n obedience girl...mum appreaciates u ^o^ ...u always b my sweetheart !!
Mayb I also ve thought about "gv up" Eagle...but that s only a min of mind...wldn't b real happen....he s my child , if I don't care about him ...who w do it ?
Ever all relatives n frds r objurgate ...disgruntled ...discriminate against u ....we w still b urside !!
Ours family spirit -- tolerance ^o^
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Quite shameful....I really did demented demeanour !!...I called n sms to all my relatives n frds : " My kids Eagle n Birdie w on Kidscentral "Trick n Treat" shw on ths coming Saturday at 1pm !"...
Ths really made me feel embarrass after calmness...why I did such crazy behaviour ?
I just 1s to share my happiness n joyous w them...but ths may causes grudged ...grumbled...gruesome fm them ....
Worthy ?
If u r me ...what w u do ?
My cute n lovely kids really pleasant about theirs perfomance n ths shw ^o^
Therefore ...b a thoughtful mum...I should do somethg right ?
Don't teases me ok !!

Well...that's 2 shocked news occuranced n ths few days ...."suicide" !!!
Why they choice to commit suicide n facile ?
Pressure ? solitary ? murdered ?....
1 of the victim ws my neighbour who stayed at Blk 5 ....a 54yrs old lady ....the other ws my relative...really a "storm"....why all happened n sudden ?
Ths 2 events were happened n diff mth....especially my relative who hd passed away amost 2 mths ago.... but I just heard fm my eldest cousin yesterday afternoon....
Felt increadible...unbelievable...un4gvable....
My pity cousin bcame widow n sudden ....her husband hung himself at theirs bedroom....left my poor cousin & theirs lovely kid without any words....
B a wife n a mum....I could understand her feeling nw...she lost the mental support....lost her blove....lost confident n sudden ...ths really cruel....irresponsibility...
A poor kid...who just 2 yrs old ....saw her dad suicide n front of her .....unquestionable ths tragedy may cause grievous memory 4 a kid...
Why I didn't knw ths happened ? Did my parent 4got to nform me ? Or they also nt received any news fm my elder auntie ? Or....
My god !!
Whether willy-nilly ....all hd happened ....irretrievable tragedy...ever console also couldn't brought back my cousin husband .....
Wishes my cousin w feel my best blessing to her ....hope she could wk out fm ths tragedy ....
I m sure that God w blessing my dear cousin !
I really thk about suicide b4....Eagle-my hyperbaby n my marriage!!
Eagle really made me hatred ...looked dw...blamed by relatives...frds....other strangers...
Marriage also a knwledge btw couples....trusty ? betray ? 4gvtable ?
Why I gv up ths mind ? reason as who w tk care my lovely kids ?....if I left them...especially Eagle -- hyperactivity boy!!....therefore , I must use my whole life to protect n tk care about them....my children need my support ....need my tolerance....need my love !!
Marriage ....I m not an expert...still n learning ....building...treasuring...
Althought ths a terrifically n tearfully task....but I tell myself must kp it up !!
I really love my family ^o^
So...I always write blog to release my stress....b a super "Ah Q" !!

Eagle ws forced to cut his hair last Saturday ....bcoz ....toooooo long lah !!
His terribled punishment -- hair cut !!....must sat on chair around 15-20min ...ths always b a languorous thg to him !!
4 a hyperkids ...ths really a good way to train his patient ....but the other ppl wldn't thk about that way ...they thought we wasted theirs time served 1 customer....they also told Eagle : " if urs parent not around , I w beat u as a punishment !!...moved here ...moved there...wasted my time !!"....
Ths impatient guy really gv Eagle a serious punishment --- cut Eagle hair n terrible looked !!
Ths made Eagle sombrely n furious...he said wldn't step nside ths saloon again ....
Couldn't blamed other ppl...Eagle really couldn't bearable n more than 10min sitting ....
Therefore ....what I done ? Brought him to another saloon to re-cut his lovely hair lol....but his hair bcame toooooo short nw !!
Birdie gv him a great suggestion : " wash hair more offen than usual , urs hair w grow more faster !!"
Then Eagle really follow Birdie "ideal" suggestion !!
Did it wk ?
I also eagerly 1s to knw the result ^o^

My kids Birdie & Eagle w appear on TV shw !!
hahaha....incredible...funny ^o^....but s a true !
They w appear n kidscentral channel "Trick n Treat" shw on ths coming Saturday {08/12} at 1pm sharp !!
Hw to describe my feeling ? still n dream ...incredulous ...
When Eagle & Birdie saw theirs figure appeared on kidscentral channel last Saturday .... they screamed n joyously !!
Ths s theirs wonderful experience ...also a memorable childhood ^o^
Mayb they r not a perfect kids ...but they ve tried theirs best !! ...well done babies ^o^
Hope most of my frds n relatives w watch ths channel on ths Saturday !!
Gv Birdie & Eagle a warm support !!

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