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Wednesday, October 10, 2007

A Shock !

My lovely son -- Eagle told me a really shock thgs ths morning !
He said he saw his grandfather (my father in-law) ws died n his dream last night ...he felt confused n worried ...
Ths really shocked new....Eagle also told me about the area -- a cemetery which we ve bn visited...he saw grandfather stood over the cemetery n suddenly vanished n front of him--n his dream !!
Why Eagle gt such terrible dream ? We never mentioned or chatted about my father in-law n ths few days...my father in-law still alive !
But since Eagle ve told me about his dream ...I feel uneasy...worry...dreary...
"Dream better don't come true " ! ---- Ths my 1st time gt a trembeling feel ...I couldn't stand ...n don't knw hw to face apart w nearest relatives...
Mayb gt more older...more scare to face "lost" n "dead"...
Lonely...?
Sometimes...I w ve a strange thking-- w a dead ppl really gt spirit ? where w ths ppl go when theirs life s over ? w they feel ours mind ? really ve heaven ? ...
If I suddenly pass away ...who w tk care my children ? w they b abuse ? w my kids miss me ? where w I go ?....
Crazy mind right ?
Well...if really happen...I couldn't apart w my Birdie n Eagle ...they r my whole world ...
Especially ...Eagle a hyperactivity kid...w other ppl could accept his strange behaviour ?
Treasure n value our life ...spend much time w ours family....don't wait until "lost" just blame time too short...too cruel...
Except ths shocked dream ...I gt a heart attacked event happened too on ths morning !!!
My daugther Birdie gv me a "terrible" shocked -- her maths gt 47 & 43 marks n revision paper....
Oh...Why all thgs came so sudden ?
Well..b a mum , I really a loser...
I thought all the mum w hopes theirs kids could gt higher marks n exam...mayb I gv wrong info to my kids ...I told them tried urs best s more important thgs than higher marks...
My family value n teach -- b a honest ...b a filial...b open-mind...b delightful ...result couldn't proof or mean anythgs n ours life ...
Well...there s no punishment n my family teaching...kids could view out theirs opinions or diff views ...
Mayb too freedom...too trusty ...too confident to my children...then Birdie w gt me ths "special" gift !!
What shall I do nw ?
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