I ♥ Yanling

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Yanling hurt...

I was back 2 M'sia last night ...

Hv a wonderful dinner at my parent hm !

I really missed that kind of felt...quite comfort...peace...wondrous ...

Mayb I grow up..mature.. more concern & care about home ...

Hope my kids w like me when they grow up !

I scare about lonely ...quiet...

Did I crazy ? demanding ?

My hubby ve course 2day ...I admit I not trust about married ...not trust him...don't knw why ?

Sometimes I ask myself ...why got married since I was not trust it ?

I always persuade myself try 2 trust other ...but ...

If a lier wouldn't lie ...mean what ?

My hubby hd bn lied b4...I was hurt...deeply hurt n heart...

But I really love him...gv him chance...hope ths the last ...but thats not...

He always say "a pc of lie could reduce friction" !

I hate lie ...

Did he knw what mean by "fidelity" & "trusty" ?

Ths made me felt uneasy ...perplex...lament...& blame myself why b so silly ? so permissive ?

All bcos I love him...love my kids ....

Mayb I m don't ve perpicacious mind , I m not a perfect wife ...not a successful mum...

But I w try my best...prove it ...real it ...

Hope my family b jollity n every sec...min...day...

I love & care about my family...

Did they care & love about me ?

Luckly I ve 2 "sincere friends" -- piano & voilin !

They always b myside when I was "hurt"...

Tease ?

I likes thier melody...thier mellowness sounds...their "meekness"...

My boy -- Eagle , why he s got hyperactivity ? why ?

Is my false ? Why I ve 2 suffer all ?

Birdie ve a change n attitude...teenager mind...only care about "net"...

Feel helpless here...my parent couldn't help me...my friends also not around...

Who could share my feel ?

Labels: I need friend ....